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So I’ve had a number of people contact me and asked me, “Did you submit to the Sundance Film Festival this year?”
I am telling everyone the same thing, “No”. I have a film to make, “Lost Angels[The Discovery]“. I have been deeply absorbed in post production with special effects and animation scenes for the movie. As well as filming with my Iowa cast both in the field, as well as with green screens which I designed this summer. I am but one person and I am genuinely trying hard to do at least a good job of each and every task that I must learn to do, in order to do the film justice.
My biggest challenge has been the script. I do not pretend to have numerous talents. However I have learned that when I put myself to the task sooner or later I manage to learn enough to do the task right. I may not be the best, or the brightest. But I am dedicated, committed, and driven to do the task right. So that obviously includes scriptwriting. After all you cannot have a movie without a script, right?
I had thought that I had had a director on board with my project, and a member if the DGA. A woman who has been very supportive and in times past a friend, at least so I had thought. But even though we all know there are types of friends I had thought I had a true friend in her after nearly 4 years of communications and networking with her. But she wanted to know about meetings that I had made, and people I was hoping>planning to see. Ultimately I had to cancel my trip and reschedule it due to a sudden family emergency which I quickly resolved. I wish my friend the best in all of her endeavors.
I stayed with an old friend I made in 2005 (when I was last there on business, interpreting and facilitating business with the Chinese who were there signing a trade agreement with the United States). She was kind enough to allow me to stay with her last minute and since I had to modify my travel plans for this trip my mode of transportation wasn’t a “preferred” mode of transportation, but all’s well that ends well.
I have several scenes to finish for “Lost Angels” and wrapped one of them this month, I call it “The baby” scene. I began shooting the next scene two weeks ago, I call it “The hunt” scene and just love getting back to all of it. Sometimes life throws us curve balls and we either give up, or figure out how to move forward. I am moving ever forward and love the journey.
I don’t know if life is truly what we make it. Sometimes I wonder as like most of you I’m not rich, if anything I’m “fairly” poor, as America goes. And I am aware that there are many worse off than me. But the reality is that my passion is to do justice by Steve and Mark. They believed in me through all of my hard times with cancer, and my ever trying daughters. They helped me to rebuild my life. Okay I’m 58 and Hollywood doesn’t really care about anyone over the age of what 25, maybe?… But I’m going to make this movie the right way and maybe, just maybe in the process earn a little respect, it is my hope anyway. I know I’m not Steven Spielberg, or Ron Howard, or Jerry Bruckheimer. I’m just me, Renn Reed.
But if I can catch someone’s eye and get taken seriously after all, well then it’s still worth a shot. I will get the script right. It may be taking longer than people would prefer but when it IS finally done, it will be right. So I apologize if there are those that feel I have let them down by not submitting to SFF 2013. I have a movie to make. Let’s keep our eye’s on that ball, focused, and hope there are no more curves!
I am telling everyone the same thing, “No”. I have a film to make, “Lost Angels[The Discovery]“. I have been deeply absorbed in post production with special effects and animation scenes for the movie. As well as filming with my Iowa cast both in the field, as well as with green screens which I designed this summer. I am but one person and I am genuinely trying hard to do at least a good job of each and every task that I must learn to do, in order to do the film justice.
My biggest challenge has been the script. I do not pretend to have numerous talents. However I have learned that when I put myself to the task sooner or later I manage to learn enough to do the task right. I may not be the best, or the brightest. But I am dedicated, committed, and driven to do the task right. So that obviously includes scriptwriting. After all you cannot have a movie without a script, right?
I had thought that I had had a director on board with my project, and a member if the DGA. A woman who has been very supportive and in times past a friend, at least so I had thought. But even though we all know there are types of friends I had thought I had a true friend in her after nearly 4 years of communications and networking with her. But she wanted to know about meetings that I had made, and people I was hoping>planning to see. Ultimately I had to cancel my trip and reschedule it due to a sudden family emergency which I quickly resolved. I wish my friend the best in all of her endeavors.
I stayed with an old friend I made in 2005 (when I was last there on business, interpreting and facilitating business with the Chinese who were there signing a trade agreement with the United States). She was kind enough to allow me to stay with her last minute and since I had to modify my travel plans for this trip my mode of transportation wasn’t a “preferred” mode of transportation, but all’s well that ends well.
I have several scenes to finish for “Lost Angels” and wrapped one of them this month, I call it “The baby” scene. I began shooting the next scene two weeks ago, I call it “The hunt” scene and just love getting back to all of it. Sometimes life throws us curve balls and we either give up, or figure out how to move forward. I am moving ever forward and love the journey.
I don’t know if life is truly what we make it. Sometimes I wonder as like most of you I’m not rich, if anything I’m “fairly” poor, as America goes. And I am aware that there are many worse off than me. But the reality is that my passion is to do justice by Steve and Mark. They believed in me through all of my hard times with cancer, and my ever trying daughters. They helped me to rebuild my life. Okay I’m 58 and Hollywood doesn’t really care about anyone over the age of what 25, maybe?… But I’m going to make this movie the right way and maybe, just maybe in the process earn a little respect, it is my hope anyway. I know I’m not Steven Spielberg, or Ron Howard, or Jerry Bruckheimer. I’m just me, Renn Reed.
But if I can catch someone’s eye and get taken seriously after all, well then it’s still worth a shot. I will get the script right. It may be taking longer than people would prefer but when it IS finally done, it will be right. So I apologize if there are those that feel I have let them down by not submitting to SFF 2013. I have a movie to make. Let’s keep our eye’s on that ball, focused, and hope there are no more curves!
Once upon a time I dreamed a dream that old friends could become
new again. That the opportunities that come with being young can still
happen if one commits to learning what it takes, perseveres to achieve
the highest qualities required to make it, and stays focused on the goal
chosen. Some have said I’m too much like a child with my ideals,
passions, and hopes. Some have clarified this as meaning “Renn you have
not grown up and you’re 58″. I say “SO!…” am I suppose to lose my dreams
because life got in the way? Because I had cancer, our best friend and
original primary owner of our business, died? Am I to give up because I
still dream and hope for the best or as some say, still look at the
glass half full?
All those who make these efforts to dissuade me from pursuing my dreams, my passions, my goals of sharing the stories and the beauty I see may tell a truth of “a type” but I choose to adhere to energies that keep me focused in a positive way and help me to deal with the many sad digressions life throws our way. I have contacted a couple of my oldest and dearest friends in recent years to chat and get caught up on everything in their lives, my life, has thrown our ways. In the end there was one friend who said to me, “I’ve made a movie and I live in Utah. It didn’t go anywhere so I don’t want to hear about your movie and what you are doing”. Okay, I said to her. Then she said she was jealous of me, and my relationship with my husband (who by the way is my sweety and best-est friend). So ultimately I had to tell her it was nice chatting with her during that 1 1/2 years but I don’t think this is going anywhere positive so take care of yourself, and good-bye.
So I then located another of the four friends in my life that I had thought were true friends and chatted for nine-ten months with her. She had agreed to let me visit after I returned from LA this August. Oh but she told me as I was about to make the reservations, that she didn’t have the time. Now I had not seen her since the 1970′s so this pretty much well, it shocked me. But then what really got me was she told me she was jealous of me. Now that just didn’t make any sense. Two women both about my age telling me they are jealous of me, but so jealous they really were bending over backwards to make some type of excuse that meant they really didn’t want to re-connect, even from a “reunion” perspective so-to-speak. Wow why wouldn’t I be shocked, these two friends and I had done so much together, one during high school and college, and the other during college. I cried because I was so stupid that I didn’t realize there really wasn’t a friendship there at all!
I am trying to learn not to want friends. This is very hard as we all want acceptance. I have a friend at Sundance, well I don’t think we’ll re-connect if for no other reason than because he is sooooo verrrrry busy! I understand that, I definitely get it. We all are in our own ways, it’s all relative. I miss the friends I thought I had. But I will always love these people I’ve learned so much from, and spent so much time with that I thought was very fun and meaningful. I’m just sorry that instead of applauding my becoming cancer free and getting my life back together (…and I’ve lost another 25 lbs) YEAH!… they want nothing to do with me. So I have to re-think this entire concept I’ve had of what a true friendship is. Or maybe not, Maybe like the song says (PINKS’ song) …something about ” …don’t over-think it”, whatever! My true friends they clearly are not but I will always, always love and cherish all of you even if you don’t feel the same for me. God bless and take good care of yourselves!
Always your friend,
Renn
PS I love you guys for your comments and interest in my posts and I will try harder to blog more… thanks for everything, you make my day!
All those who make these efforts to dissuade me from pursuing my dreams, my passions, my goals of sharing the stories and the beauty I see may tell a truth of “a type” but I choose to adhere to energies that keep me focused in a positive way and help me to deal with the many sad digressions life throws our way. I have contacted a couple of my oldest and dearest friends in recent years to chat and get caught up on everything in their lives, my life, has thrown our ways. In the end there was one friend who said to me, “I’ve made a movie and I live in Utah. It didn’t go anywhere so I don’t want to hear about your movie and what you are doing”. Okay, I said to her. Then she said she was jealous of me, and my relationship with my husband (who by the way is my sweety and best-est friend). So ultimately I had to tell her it was nice chatting with her during that 1 1/2 years but I don’t think this is going anywhere positive so take care of yourself, and good-bye.
So I then located another of the four friends in my life that I had thought were true friends and chatted for nine-ten months with her. She had agreed to let me visit after I returned from LA this August. Oh but she told me as I was about to make the reservations, that she didn’t have the time. Now I had not seen her since the 1970′s so this pretty much well, it shocked me. But then what really got me was she told me she was jealous of me. Now that just didn’t make any sense. Two women both about my age telling me they are jealous of me, but so jealous they really were bending over backwards to make some type of excuse that meant they really didn’t want to re-connect, even from a “reunion” perspective so-to-speak. Wow why wouldn’t I be shocked, these two friends and I had done so much together, one during high school and college, and the other during college. I cried because I was so stupid that I didn’t realize there really wasn’t a friendship there at all!
I am trying to learn not to want friends. This is very hard as we all want acceptance. I have a friend at Sundance, well I don’t think we’ll re-connect if for no other reason than because he is sooooo verrrrry busy! I understand that, I definitely get it. We all are in our own ways, it’s all relative. I miss the friends I thought I had. But I will always love these people I’ve learned so much from, and spent so much time with that I thought was very fun and meaningful. I’m just sorry that instead of applauding my becoming cancer free and getting my life back together (…and I’ve lost another 25 lbs) YEAH!… they want nothing to do with me. So I have to re-think this entire concept I’ve had of what a true friendship is. Or maybe not, Maybe like the song says (PINKS’ song) …something about ” …don’t over-think it”, whatever! My true friends they clearly are not but I will always, always love and cherish all of you even if you don’t feel the same for me. God bless and take good care of yourselves!
Always your friend,
Renn
PS I love you guys for your comments and interest in my posts and I will try harder to blog more… thanks for everything, you make my day!
First I want to thank absolutely everyone for following me and my
comments, and all of your supportive and positive posts. All of your
in-put is very appreciated. I originally started this blog because I
needed a way to express myself as positively as possible given that I
have begun to learn that “aging” or “getting older” is a huge road block
no matter the profession one chooses. I have heard of age
discrimination but in my heart of hearts felt that it was probably
rooted in “people in general” who weren’t able to relate to new
technologies, or to young people and their interests, or lifestyles.
Although I am 58 I have never fallen into these categories so I was truly stunned when I became part of that when my work if nothing else says I am young at heart and yet still able to understand people my age or older. I guess I never grew up at least in my heart I have always believed one can achieve their dreams. No one said it would be easy but I believe it can happen whether you are young(er) or old(er).
It isn’t easy, and sometimes not even fun, it is hard. But my love, passion, skills and talents push me onward with the hope that someone somewhere will meet me part way and help me network with them to move forward. My movie “Lost Angels[The Discovery]” which I am currently editing is a project that no matter what must be made in honor of our best friend Steve, and also my husband Mark, who helped me to become cancer free. Steve passed about 1 1/2 years after I became cancer free and his dream was to make good stories into great films. So although this almost seems absurd to some, I must complete at least this project in his honor. At my website:
www.LiquidIceEnt.com
There are other projects I do hope and have every intention of completing. It’s just that this one must be first.
I greatly appreciate all of you posting your positive comments. Please continue and pass the word about my blog. It never hurts to have all of your “good vibes” helping us on our journey. My best to you all! RR
Although I am 58 I have never fallen into these categories so I was truly stunned when I became part of that when my work if nothing else says I am young at heart and yet still able to understand people my age or older. I guess I never grew up at least in my heart I have always believed one can achieve their dreams. No one said it would be easy but I believe it can happen whether you are young(er) or old(er).
It isn’t easy, and sometimes not even fun, it is hard. But my love, passion, skills and talents push me onward with the hope that someone somewhere will meet me part way and help me network with them to move forward. My movie “Lost Angels[The Discovery]” which I am currently editing is a project that no matter what must be made in honor of our best friend Steve, and also my husband Mark, who helped me to become cancer free. Steve passed about 1 1/2 years after I became cancer free and his dream was to make good stories into great films. So although this almost seems absurd to some, I must complete at least this project in his honor. At my website:
www.LiquidIceEnt.com
There are other projects I do hope and have every intention of completing. It’s just that this one must be first.
I greatly appreciate all of you posting your positive comments. Please continue and pass the word about my blog. It never hurts to have all of your “good vibes” helping us on our journey. My best to you all! RR
We all know these things take time, hard work, consistent dedication, talent, and so many other important and useful qualities. I in know way pretend to have them all, or know it all. I simply push forward hoping some in this industry of filmmaking will take me seriously, meaning my work.
Steve and my husband helped me become cancer free after 12 years, 1987-1999. Steve passed on Jon Bon Jovi’s birthday March 2, 2001. Some have said to me why do you dwell on the past?!? I don’t. I use my history to push me forward, to remember all of those who have been positive influences in my life. And for all who are of the opinion that I whine and complain, you try surviving 12 years of cancer, or 7 years of cancer, like Steve Jobs did. Then if you are one of the “lucky ones” to survive, what they don’t tell you is what you will go through to re-build your life.
I am grateful for all that I have been blessed with, my creative journey has kept me both sane and full of hope that there must be some in this wonderful industry of filmmaking that do not discriminate simply because I am a “50 something”. All that I am trying to do with my life is have a life. A life that I was blessed to have thanks to a higher power most of us call God, and two wonderful and dear friends, Mark being my sweet husband.
I have lost my third computer since 2008 to hackers, I will get another at some point when my budget allows. But in the meantime I am working on my shooting schedule here in Iowa, sketching my storyboard for “Lost Angels”. In addition, I am working out the kinks in my lyrics for both my movie soundtrack, as well as my commercial CD that will be genre specific.
Life is not easy for any of us. This economy we are all in makes dreams that much harder to pursue, and achieve. Thank you all for your interest and support because we can all use a community of people that like and care about what we do.
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